End Of April

It's end of April...
We passes our monthly anniversary at mamak..
A white bueno for her.
I miss her very much...
I can see that,
she getting more slim.
she felt very tired.
her skin getting darker.
Now, im not with her like last time.
My heart feel so pain to see her like that.
I couldn't tell out my feeling...
I juz act like nothing...

I juz feel jealous that her time had contributed to St John.
Ya, I might be selfish...
I always think that why she want to give all her time to that?
Why not me??
Why she can sacrifice so much for St John...
I wanted to steal all the free time she have...
I want her so much.
I miss her so much
I love her so much.
Im a thief...
It is my wrong...

When she mention that,
after her competition we less have chance to meet up.
Or even got no chance...
My mind becomes blank.
When she mention that,
she wanted to take course for her adult,
I feel even more blank.
All she wan is to get knowledge n experience from the course.
I misunderstand it...

When she mention St John,
I only will think negative.
I forget that other than wasting time on training,
there's knowledge she can earn from certain activity..
Ya, if u wanted to go for it, go ahead...
I wont block u for gaining knowledge.

Recently, I seems cold to her.
She's trying to make things up,
and im giving cold respond.
What am I thinking?
Why am I like that?
Is it all because I wanted it to be used?
Or it is because the problem is from my ownself?
Am I thinking too much?

After I told her all my thought last night.
I guess she understand it very well.
Everything is settle..
I never think of dumping u before.
Baby, I love u...

惭愧??

Recently,
I think I have something to post here.
It's about my baby...

We less argue now le,
it's a positive change.
Guess, we started to understand each other even more better.
Can count as another steps we take on ^^

Lets talk abt me n u.
Ya, recently u felt 惭愧...
Baby, u dont need to think like that.
I did this all is because I love u.

I know, u couldn't treat me like how I treat u.
U will feel that u are useless, and think many negative thing.
Baby, u need to think oo.
Now de me, got freedom, got time...
I can do whatever I want.
Just not doing the bad thing can already.
I sure will make everything possible about me n u.

But ur situation is different,
U havent got the freedom, the time, and of course the power to do wad u wan.
Especially the power to be with me all the time.

Dont worry,
I understand how u feel.
Baby, I never blame on ur wrong.
It doesnt mean that u dint do wad I had do for u,
I will hate u, I will dislike u...
There's no SUCH thing.
And I wont think like that.

Baby,
maybe u cant show ur love to me through action.
But u had shown through ur heart.
I can feel it, I know how much u love me.
Let the time pass, wait until u have the power.
I will wait for the day, i will...
Promise u ^^
So, now dont feel 惭愧 le...

I love u...

Secret Recepie

Last friday,
whish is 2nd of April,
we had lunch together after baby finish school.
Hehe, this time is lao po belanja oo.
Really pai seh @@

I wait her at the connaught giant there de bridge,
she walk over n meet me up there after her school.
Hehe, saw her walking from far from the bridge.
Her way n react while walking on the street was quite funny,
dont know why, I just feel that, she's cute :))
Aiks, I wish I could be beside her n walk with her.
So that she can feel safe while walking on the street.
But 为了安全, must be careful, later kena spot by her mommy,
mampus kita :S

Until we meet up,
we walk to Secret Recepie.
It was nearby.
It took us long time to decide which cake to eat.
And it also took us long time to finish the cake.
We both had a wonderful time there.
I feed u, u feed me @@
Hehe, very sweet lor >,< Love that moment so much :P



The bill, thx baby for the treat oo...







Lao po de pai seh face @@






Haih,
our sweet moment do pass very fast.
Not just awhile,
baby had to go back to school and do her stuff.
Really hope that we could spend more time together.
So, we called it a day...
Without a kiss goodbye.