Day Before NGO

Lap po, tml is the day u go for competition le.
It can be consider as a climax of ur pressure,
It also can be consider as the most pressure day.
Not juz lao po in the pressure, all of the St. John carry this of mood too.
But im focusing on my dearest lao po ^^
Today when I saw u, u looks so serious,
I can feel that u are very xin ku...
Not juz abt the competition,
but in other aspect too...

Now de u, sure very gan chiong n scare.
But think forwardly, after that day...
Win or Lose, it setted by fate n the peformance tml.
We cant judge the result,
Dar, no matter how... Think positive k?
After that day, ur pressure will reduce.
Finally dar can let go that weight.
Slowly and slowly, dar can focus more on studies n me lu.
Huhu!~
Dear onli can see dar xin ku.
I also got to do smth to share the "kepahitan" together ^^

Life, really full of sweetness n sadness o?
I hope dar will win in this competion.
U can dee, give urself confident, try ur best...
Although dear cant support beside u, but I will support u in my heart.
Gambateh o...
I love u! Muacks!!! Muackx !!! Muacksx!!!~

Thx Lao Po...

The for it o ^^
I bu she de open it neeeee ><

The Romantic Day

27th March 2009 (Friday),

It is the 2nd time I go out wit u.
We walk out from school to leisure mall.
Although im abit tired n leg pain.
But because got chance, I wont miss it ^^
Dar dun worry ehhh, now my leg ok jor d...
We walk around the leisure mall like baka lu.
Actually we need to go to Jalan Alor and take her uniform d,
because dar rush time, so me n her went back 1st.
The weather seems dark n its going to rain soon.
I got the chance to hold her hand while walking back.
(Hope it can let her feel safety from me :) )
We stop at a play ground n rest, she asked to.
We sit on a place there n spend time there together.
The moment was juz me n her,
We are juz looking each other awhile n awhile,
We was very close btw each other,

In that time, it reminds me abt a dream long time ago,
Before we together, Dar still remember we got dream that we together b4?
This is true, i juz tell u we together but I dint tell u abt something in the dream.
I think I should tell u here XD
In that condition, I feel like wanna hold n hug her tight... And I do kiss her.
It happened exactly the same as I dream.
(Im not simply kiss ppl d, I used up alot of courage n plan to do it ><) It's raining after that, we are still walking n running back to school. It's fun for kena rain drops under the rain... I did something stupid, which is kissing her in the rain. I feel so happy n stressless with her... It was like those drama @@ It was like in the dream,I think dar will think like that also. U give me the greatest feeling ><

When be back to school, our body all wet.
I forget to do smth, I forget to take my towel out n help dar dar dry dry.
Sorry arh, I too 紧张 already.
Slowly, I'd already cope over something which is :
I do not scare letting ppl know who is my Girl Friend.
Now ppl ask, I will straightly answer "Sharon Is my Dar Dar".
When she go back, the feeling of missing her started le.
Now....
I fully love her, my heart full of her, even my mind also full of her...
No body really really can steal ur heart from me.
And it is same as me...
I wont let other ppl drag us out...

That night dar is quite tired, she slept earlier le...
My internet got problem, sorry that i posted lately...

Fun OK ^^

2day, chui li, daniel, kah weng and me went to fun ok...
2 sweet couple in a sweet day de mood...
when we reach there, i order my xing zhou mi fen,
dear jiu order thai fried rice...
we still share drink honey aloe vera...
b4 the food coming,
we played some games,
so exciting & happy...
1st round daniel & chui li lose le...
we request them sing a song or kiss each other... so bad oo? wakaka!
they feel shy, and scare...after that chui li sing 摇滚怎么了...
almost cant heared... haha!
2nd round... we lose le...
u see, we so bad... there must 报仇 norh!、
but chui li most good de...just dende dear hug me...
dear give me a big hug norh! sweet sweet! hehe!
we also didnt play le, chui li & daniel keep on take photo norh!
dear curi my photo... haha!
Dear arh! delete narh! very ugly...
next time we take photo 2gether narh! hehe ^^
yesterday & 2day also very happy nerh!
when dear beside me, every suffer things liked disappear le...
hope dear can beside me forever! wakaka ^^
I love lao gong ^^

From ur darling o(∩_∩)o

The Tears U Drop...

Its a simple Thursday.
As normal we spend time together during recess time.
We have a sweet moment over there.
I'd given her my most natural n best d emotion.
Coz I feel glad n happy wit her
I hope that I can cheer her up...

While in canteen, although got many ppl observing us.
I still very normal de treat my dar (sweetly) ^^
There's no fear even the ppl I hate is in front me n gossiping.
Love conquer me ><, lao po is the best~
When it is the time I have to go back the class where she need to go for training,
I got the feeling like duwan let her go...
Eeeee, I wan my lao po always beside me narrr.

After school, her eye gives me the sign of unhappy.
I was thinking either it's true or not.
She never mention it, but at the end she admited that she cried.
Dar, finally dear can be wit u when u're not in a good mood.
I feel like wanna hug u tightly n tell u it will be ok.
Dear wan to let u know being wit me is really peaceful.
I also wan to kiss dar, but I dont stand a chance.
But I'd did my best to make u laugh back like normal le.

This time, the way she laugh is much more different.
I can feel that she's thanking me n glad to have me beside her.
I feel so happy that my lao po will appriciate wad I did to her.
My heart feel so tenang for awhile.
Yea, u can see that I macam very strong, but my heart lembut.
Dear wish wad i'd done wont be white do de...
But I believe that, it is my responsible n my love to her.
I love my lao po, keke!~ :)

One Month

We finally together over one month le.
I feel so happy in this days.
Anyway its a beginning,
We still have long way to go with.
We still have long way to understand each other.
There are also many problem to solve.
Because all the things cant be solve in one day,
Juz like our love cant only love for one day...
Blek blek!
The love I have with dar will still remains strong.
I swear!

Although we not together for very long time
n we also not together everytime.
But I do enjoy every single moment with u.
I willing to spend my life with u...
I know it's sounds crazy, but it is really true,
im crazy deeply love my darling ^^

We cant have nice celebration today because of some halangan.
She need to be wit her friend for the training.
I know she also 很难做人 in this kind of situation geh,
but no worries na, dear faham ><
I really hope dar faster gao dim st. john stuff le.
It not just kacao dao her study, but it also affect dao me n her together de time.
Dar dar sure stress alot...

The face I show u today not means I dissapointed or sad...
It is because dear feel heart pain for u for being so 辛苦 and stressful.
Although u juz see me sha sha de n happy happy.
But my heart was dropping tear.
Yet, i still need to support my dar dar.
So I have to be strong, muakaka ^^
U really make big influence in my life...

Dar, I really dunno how to express my love to u here.
But it's all in my heart.
I can feel that there are still some fear towards me.
Maybe dar shy shy, dar will heart atk when see dao me,
dear dear very scary or dear dear to "leng zai" le? *Perasan betul :P*
But I hope she can overcome it so that we both will be more closer.
And even more natural... Bleks
Dar, dun leave me k?
I love u... I really really love u...

P/S : I type it simple... But im expressing it by sms wit u...

Darling miss u so much ^^

Dear, u always write blog to me
now i write to u narh...
erm... sorry for this week im keep on cemburu...
really sorry oo! u cant tahan le ba... hehe
u continue chat with ur friends narh...
im gonna change myself, i can do it de ^^
we must share our 心事 & solve 2gether oo!
coz i really scare u will leave me...
thank you dear so sayang me...
im so happy and feel glad u r always beside me...
thank you thank you ^^
Dear, I love u...

The lesson I Had Learn

Today, I went to time square for the Anime Festival event.
At 1st I aspect there will be bunch of ppl acting in anime characther.
But it turns up into Hotlink Mobile phone + Games event.
The actual anime event held tml.
But since me n my tuition fren at there le, we juz look around ba.
I attended a competition which gives out phone for the 1st winner.
Unfortunately, I lose in the competition and the game was unfair...
I asked for a rematch but the judge refused...

Im was abit sad abt it because I was wondering to win a phone to her and I couldnt make it...
She did advice me, I feel so glad that she would give me a solid n nice advice.
Dar, really thx o...

Yea, this is not related to me n her..
The conclusion is :
"The things which is not belongs to you, it wont be yours.
When it really yours den it is yours...It's my luck."
This is the thing I had learn today.

Although it is not special, but it reminds about me n my darling.
It's my luck to know her in my life...
And now she's really mine...and she's belongs to me :P
Maybe it has been setted like this, but having my dar is more important than having the phone.
I can missed up the chance to win a phone but I cant missed up darling in my life.
We both together perfectly, she fill in my heart widely n deeply...
I wont leave u and I will never let u go..
I swear ^^


Here's another story
When I went to the pasar malam wit my fellow tuition fren.
One of my friend n his gf stand in a corner n have conversation btw each other secretly.
Both of them got problem, we all also talk abt it...
And of course, all of us already know wad will happen.
At the end, they break up. The boy look so sad n the girl dunno go where le.
I not really know wad happened, but all I know is...
His gf got very bad attitude (like big sister,bossy), and because of that the boy like another girl.
His gf was his 1st love...
3 of them study in same school, the boy always close to the girl that he like.
Den close close har he like jor that girl instead of his gf.
This kind of situation can consider both side wrong ba,
Bcoz he should share n settle problem together wit his gf to have better relation, let his gf more understand his feeling towards her...
But the girl also have to share problem together n should appriciate wad his bf treat to her nor...

P/S : This is from my own sight, conclusion, n hearing. I dont really comfirm the story n conclusion is like this d.

After the conversation, he told me that she keep asking him not to leave him.
But he still decide to leave her, he wanted to be single agn n analyze who the one he really love wit. The story ends here...

Y I wanna share this to dar ne?
It is because I wanted to let dar know wad I saw n experienced onli.
Dar dun feel sad for it o, coz it will not happen wit us.
Choi Choi Choi!!! It wont na..
Kakaka, this is one a problem where a couple never share their 心事 and never solve it together.
It should be glad that both of us dint meet this problem because we like so share our problems geh...
Perasan ooo? Blek...

Haih, today we dint meet together...
Miss u alot leee ><
Dar, once agn, I love U!!!
Muackx

Abt My Life

Darling, this is about my life, juz to share wit u, this is juz let u know onli o.
Dun let other know k? I type it since few years ago.
Dear share wit u na, i'll delete it after u finish reading,

This is wad I face last time :
Actually,my sis did moved to outside...Because of wad?...Freedom & duwan family to take care of her...she left all the things and moved out...even the car...my dad bought to her...she also left it there and stay outside liao...My dad so sad...so I always stay with my dad and we discuss alot of things..Y my sis changed to be so bad? I keep on finding her friend and tried to have a closer contact to her...but cant find any clue abt her,she like invisible le...All her friend said dint see her for long time ago...coz she never answer anyppl's call...including me n my mom...My dad so trusted her, give her all the trust, buy her a car, anything also let her to do...At the end everything was a fake,she moved away...

Me as a youngest one in my family very san fu...duno want to help who... My mom always go bet... My bro run away since i small untill now (I very long time dint see dao him le)...And now, my sis also like that~ Y it happened on me???Coz of wad???...I feel that all also my wrong, I like cant do anything... I juz stand there and see.

When i havent born(7 years b4 i born),my sis was borned(1985). After a few month,my dad flew to US and earn money at there and my mom stay at Malaysia and take care of my sis... My mom got pregnant agn and my bro was born when 1986...dat time my dad still working in US...And always send money back to Malaysia for my mom to save it...Badly, My mom went and BET all the money that my dad sent to her....My father wanted my mom use for my sis and bro and save all those money de... When my dad come back, my dad tot that he can buy a house and start a new life wit us.How know,my mom used all. My dad sure full of disappointed and very sad. He did decide to let go of the family. But at the end my dad simpati my mom and he want my mom to change. My dad come back when 1987, my sis 1years old and my bro few months old onli. My dad bring my mom to US and they both work at there. My sis and my bro was given to my grandpa(my mother side) as a babysister. When 1992, I was borned...That time they still at US, they did plan duwan to born me, coz they scare they cant affort me. They think that one son one daughter enough liao. But my dad havent see in his own eye that a Baby(that's me) from when born out until until big... My sis and bro when 1years old and few month my dad go US work liao le, cant look at them from small till big. So they dint plan to abadon me. Im so lucky and borned at US.

When i was 2years old. That means 1994. My parent n I flew back to Malaysia...My sis and bro already 8 and 9 years old.As they never saw my mom n dad before. They finnaly know who is thier mom and dad, and a Little Bro too. A Family was united. But for my bro n sis sure not biasa wit new environment ba...I think if it turns to u, ur parent give birth to u den go outstation le. 7-8 years later only come back, u sure feel not biasa right???

My bro standard one know how to lie ppl le. When my bro standard 4, he ran away from home coz my bro learn bad. Then come back, when standard 6 run agn. Form2 run agn(he's already buang sekolah)...den Age 16 he commited a crime which selling n taking drugs, he might be jailed for 10 years or given death punishment, my sis n grandma saved him, I never see him after that...He got come back once, my dad feel glad n welcome him back, he stayed overnight, until the next day he steal my dad de expensive laptop n run away n never come back agn... Until one day agn (it was CNY), he got an accident,he and his 3 friend were fall down from the genting highland moutain road while driving car. He was lucky that he never die for that acident, among 4 of them got 1 of them climb up and saved the other all 4 ppl...But unfortunely,he was dead...coz when he climb up, he used too much energy to climb up, his stomach cant stand n he passed away like that. Others are save, my bro go abit serious coz his end of his back bone cracked abit...but he still can move...nid RM10,000 to do an operation. I tot my dad duwan save him le, but my bro keep say he wan change himself n this n that. My father never kira anything wit him and helped him, he paid RM10,000 to heal my bro backbone.When the operation completed, he came back for the treatment, should be happy rite?But the sad part is, he juz come back awhile. when he come back no longer, he ran away agn. I really dunno y my bro dunno zhen xi everything that my dad given. I really hate him alot...My dad get hurt alot, but he still accept the facts... And im the one who are there for the happening...

Ok,my sis turn. She was a good girl. She's Responsible for being eldest one. Until she form 3, she starting to change but my father dint perasan. Coz my father trusted her for being a Big Sis.Ok, Form 3 PMR and Form 5 Spm, she did pass it. She went out work lo. She got a bad attitude, she always promised ppl the thing and she cant do it. Being Action, wanna Be Rich but wan senang-senang with her work, wanna show to her friend that she is rich and very trustworthy 1... But at the end she cant do it. She Fah sum too,suka-suka den like this boy, suka-suka den like other. She be bad when she cham with those bad ppl, those ppl teach her learn how to drink and many more bad stuff that I duno. This is the onli thing that I know abt her, coz she show it to me b4 and she also tell me b4. My father quite innocent, he care abt my sis so he asked her not to do smth wrong n bad... But she always used me to lie to my father, act bring me out, but throw me at my fren's house den go Pub wit frens. She ask me to act n lie my father see,i also cant do anything,so i juz can ack lu. Until now, I told my father and he knew it all. My father was very diasppointed to her. My sis blame all the thing to my father, say my dad make her very fan n always scold her den pindah out. Coz she wan freedom~But she never realize that my dad do so much thing for her... Until one day she dunno becoz of wad go borrow ah long money, owe them RM17,000. Not a small amount le. My house kena splash paint, but it's not our fault also. My dad also stand out n helped my sis for that. She also borrow money from all of my relative (about RM13,000) like that. She dint mention it to us, but we found her borrow list de book from her room. My dad yet helped her. I wonder y my sis used so much money...My maruah keluarga... Haiz...

One face I could not believe is my sis not my dad de daughter lai de...
And now, I dunno that me n my bro is my dad de son lai de or not...
But I still have to be strong...
Coz my dad tetap my dad...My mom tetap my mom :)

Now left Me, my mom and my dad.How will other ppl look at us?How would our relative look at us??? My maruah keluarga is zero already. But luckily my sis got married and now her life stable jor alot... But my bro still missing. My dad say I was lucky coz I can see many things in my own eye and gain many experience.My family....... I get many advice from my dad n myself and I learned to be strong. I know wad is correct, wad is wrong. So i know being a ppl is like that, I know many thing, I suffer many. I got the pain that other dun have, I see my dad so cham so I always chat with my dad and be wit him. My life very fan d, my family, not like a family.But my relationship between my dad and me wont change. Dont see me smile always. im juz think positive n being happy all the time.

This 2 Days...

Happy to say that we both are already together for 3 weeks...
Counting down for 1 month le, Happi happi! =)
Dunno y, I really put le alot of 感情 to my dar...
I wonder if she duwan me, I will how...

Recently, I draw my time to meet her in school. (wed n thur)
Coz I miss her alot and I wanted to see her.
Haiz, she's not happy. Being dear de me see dao she no happy...
I dunno can do wad, feel abit useless and wrong.
But wad I can do is be wit her n give me power :)
I know, u got alot of pressure for this camp.
Dar need to take care alot of thing right???
It can consider a challenge or a problem in our life.
Coz everyone also got this kind of situation, esspecially in this era...
I'll always stand on ur side and support u, coz we got to face all the problem together.
And I know we can do it...
Dear hope can solve every of ur problem :)
Dear will be positive always no matter how hard is it, jia you jia you!!!

This few day darling train under the burning sun,
when I observe u...
I can see ur eye full with tiredness with a red line beside ur eye lens.
Ur face full of tired sign...
The sun burn ur skin until become red n dark.
Ur leg numbed and pain caused by marching.
A fake/forced emotion n smile, and a sadding heart which dropping tears inside.
Am I correct??? or I think too much???
I see that dar like keep cheering urself and forced to be happy.
My heart pain alot n feel that wanna let u rest.
Darling, u really did alot of thing for this camp, u worked really hard...

If dar got any problem abt me, or abt urself.
Must tell me k?
Dun keep in ur heart...
Dear juz wan u to be happy n understand u more.
Promise me k? I'll be ur good listener and dear wont do anything stupid.
Da gou gou o ^^

My dad @@

Aiks, my dad saw her msg that send to mi today when he play ma phone >< Sei mou, when he wanna give back da phone to me he said "ur gf find u"... Den I act like sollow n change his topic :P He ask me where she live, who is she, same school onot, when together those -_- My dad quite open geh, but I pai seh lar, dunno how to answer him... Dar dun worry o, he nothing de... I feel that dar not in the mood today, dun sad sad na... Maybe she think more jor @@ Dear miss u alot le, and I know dar also da same.



Nah, here's my pic XD
It's not so clear o, my phone cacat T.T
I took it yesterday before I sleep de.
Hehe...

Dar dream dao me yesterday wor?
Dunno wad I buy for her le?Hmm...
After my tuition I go Low Yat for the training camp le.
I dint go for my science on 9.10 today.
Dun worry abt me o, wish me luck k?
But where is dar dar de lucky kiss?
Muakakaka, I siao siao le :P

In and Out...

Friday,
Last 3 days, I bought a new phone which is same as the one dar dar using.
It is 2nd hand n I bought it for RM380 (my own money o)
Coz I wan same phone wit dar mar.
Sacrifice abit also nvm de.
But I get scold by my dad when i brought it back ><
He say I stupid. Swt...
Dar dun feel sorry wo, coz I memang stupid geh @@

Saturday,
The next day,
I woke up late coz I sleep until dunno wake le :P
After I tuition I straight away go back.
I dint notice that my phone sot le, all the msg i'd send to her she dint receive dao.
My dad bring me back to the phone shop and grab a better phone.
Pity na, I wanna same phone wit my dar leeeee T.T
But at last my dad picked SE G705 for mi le :(
She went to pasar malam, I tot that I can meet wit her geh...
But when I reached there, she's already at Jusco le.
Argh, if I went there earlier mai can see u lo...

Sunday, (the omg day..)
I went to work for full day n she went for training until afternoon.
Badly, she lost her phone. Someone steal it.
She used other ppl's phone sms me n mention it.
I tot I see wrong. But after tat I realize that it is true...
She might get scold by her parent :(
My heart sure pain alot, keep on worry abt her when working.
I feel like wanna see her on the spot.
I dunno how was she...
KC told me that she cried ><
Aihs, if im there when she need me, how good was it..
But he problem is im not there. Feel nai jiu o
I bought new phone, the next day she lost her phone.
If I got money wit me, I sure buy a new one for her...
Some more im busy working n dint care dao her.
Dar sure disappointed for my absent.


Dar lost phone le, but I cant do anything but juz worry.
I seems useless o ><
Sorry le.
This few day cant see dao u, dunno when can be wit u le?
Dar, I miss u n love u alot...

The Unforgetful

I think both of us can consider this as the most sweet and happy day ba
Me, she, and her st gang went to Jln Alor.
They went there to ukur their body for the uniform.
We used to walk from school to leisure mall bus stop there n take bus.
It seems like all of them give us two ppl some chance to be more closer.
She looks gan chiong and I dunno wad to do.
Wad I did was hold her shirt wit two finger.
Baka hor?

Here the scene happen, I tried to be cool and brave.
We got into the bus later, we sit together.
I feel so nervous and she sure feel very gan chiong.
At last, i get to hold her hand in bus.
Her hand very cold and got alot of sweat...
But dun worry, whenever Im beside u, i'll give u my warm @@
The feel was different, we are like in other world le.
She was scare for a moment, but no longer she had calm down le.
Dar, i really deep in love wit u le.

While in the bus, I can feel that she's observing me.
The way she look at me are different than usuall...
The way she smile at me are much more different too.
I feel so happy lu, coz I feel so sweet and loved @@.
I can also hold ur hand for so long. My world like suddenly peace down le :)
My pressure in my life like gone le. It was like jux me n her...
I hope that the time can stop at that moment lu...
(this is the 2nd time she taking bus)

We reached to the destination no longer,
5 of them need to measure their body to make a new uniform for them.
I went out buy fruit, I tot the apple-like fruit was sweet...
But it comes out wit sour, she saw me eat until wan cry wan cry,
she help me eat all le. Really no rela hati see dar dar help me eat sour thing lu.
Xin ku u le...Sowiee arrrhhh...
Dar keep wan pay back the money I pay for her.
But duwan dar give back, dun guai me ar.

After that, we went back to school.
Dar da tou xia o, forget take bag :P
Luckily dear remind u XD.
She wait her mom in the school to come n fetch her,
we chat face to face in the school while waiting her mommy arrive lu.
We spend quite good moment together also de arh ><
Pn Ong (leng lui) saw us chatting together, psps..
Her mom arrived n she went back already.
I got bu she de her de feeling nur.
Dar, stay wit me, dear started miss u le TT
Pn Ong pass by agn, she said that my dar dar is a good girl.
Worth to be together. Den keep on laugh n swt swt ooo
Wad Pn Ong said is true geh, wohohohoo...

Later on I tumbang my friend de car go back lu.
Had a bath n dinner den rush go out to buy the phone which my dar using de.
I wan pair pair phone wit her ><
I bought it around RM380, wont heart pain na.
Coz I willing de. Love dar dar until kena poison liao.
Apa boleh buat :P
We juz have to keep on love like that...
Other's couple sure will xuan mu us.
I zi lian hor? lalalalaa...

Get scold by dad for buying worthless phone so ex,
but for me I dun think is ex or cheap.
Coz I wan pair pair wit dar dar.
Dar, dun feel sorry....
I will heart pain ooo.
But truely i really love u...
Love dao dunno how to say.
Today is consider as we 1st day we yue hui ba.
I think both of us sure happi dao tonight cant sleep le, although tired :P

This blog I made it simple, although outsiders read dao like very simple.
But for us we will think that it's not so simple ba?
Full of today's (13/3/09) memories o.
Our relation added alot wo~
This memories wont be deleted till our end of life ba? :)
Dear will give full trust on u and love u only.
There's no other girl can replace u...
I swearrrrr!!!

Dunno y I suddenly feel that u not in mood n sad sad.
Sure got smth wit u...
Dar, dun like that na...
Dear worry oo...
If unhappy tell mi k?

Missing u...

Dar, this few days...
We cant meet each other.
I miss u alot...
Really really alot...
Yesterday I not onli think abt that thing onli,
I was thinking abt u until I cant sleep.
My phone sot plug on that time.
I wanted to send the msg to u but it cant send.
Until u mention u wan off phone le.
I keep on worry...

Dun say sorry to dear dear na,
I patut worry abt u,
If I never cares and worry abt u.
Im not ur dear dear le.

Now, I onli believe in dar.
Even though many ppl will think friend is more important.
But in my heart, friends cant be easily trusted.
They will betray u and they might tell all ur secret to others
Im not telling that we cannot got friend at all.
Juz that, we need to know friends in the smart way and communicate wit them not too deep.
That is my concept lar.

Lets talk abit abt me, that I think yesterday.
I was wondering y I so stupid.
When I receive ur last msg that mention that u say ur phone no batt le n sleep that time,
I feel very worry of u, I think that u angry me le, u cry and feel disappointed.
I might think negative or think more le.
If u say wad's the difference if compare to u n others ppl.
I will say, I never wei one ppl so gan chiong and do so many things before....
I never being so so so so serious before...
I think this is the key word ba, there's more and I dunno how to tell it to u.
In that night, I cant really sleep.
I jux cant stop thinking of dar, it reminds me my past.

Since we are juz two week together.
We still got alot of time to walk with.
There are many thing about me and u which we dont know.
But I believe that 'time' will let us more understand each other.
Slow and steady :)
We still need to spend alot of time together to understand more and know about our past btw us...

Today never see u, I feel uncomfortable...
><...
Dar, love u once agn...
Happy half month anniversary :P

Missing T.T

Dar....
Start on tml, u cant see me in the school le o.
Im going to the stadium and represent the school to help them up.
I bet both of us will miss each other alot ><
We cant meet at canteen as usual le T.T
I hope can see dao u le.

But there will be 20% im not going.
Coz there's something wrong with the surat.
Dar sure bu she de me de lo.
But when u got stay i'll come back n find u :)

Before school start,
hope can see dao u na.
Next week holiday le.
More sui, 9 days cant meet...
We find one day out of the holiday and go out gai gai k?
Can suan is 约会 ba :P
Keke~

Sweet...

Sweetest morning ever....
We meet at school in the morning,
we sit together in the canteen
This time, we are closer than other time.
She sit very close wit me o.
She's seems sleepy,
And she sleep on my shoulder too.
She said my shoulder very comfort o
I feel very happy ehhh...
This is the sweetest time I ever had :)

I sang song to her,
but too bad my voice not really warmed up and recovered.
Sowee ar, i sing dao like sha lao @@
Pai sehhhhh...
I will sing agn next time de. T.T

Dar, when u beside me.
I feel different, like in other world jor ><
the heartbeat, the smells, the feel, the warm,the love...
I dunno how to describe ner,
I think dar dar got the feel I have.
All I can feel it from u, really de le...
I swear!!!

Today u so cham o, most of them go back le.
Left u checking the stock...
Dar really rajin jek...

She went back on 12.30 le.
I 5 onli go back, sorry ar, need dar dar dan xin me agn.
But I already very careful le, dint kena rain and do something stupid de.
So I wun get sick o XD
Today she intro me watch 放羊的星星 o.
She quite hope I watch that.
So I watch it, I finished 1st episode.
Quite gan dong de ler...
Luckily im boi boi, not so easy cry.
Muakakaka, zi lian de dear ><

I would never forget this day.
Which is the 1st time I got so close with her.
The feel is extremely different.
I hope I can always stay like that wit her lu.
Im so greedy hor? ><
Dar, when im without u...
I feel lonely and I miss u ner.
Love u really deep dao dunno how to say le.
Dar dar, 我爱你!!!!!!

I'll remind u to drink water de wo.
And I wont luan luan shout liao ><.
Promise o~

The Pasar Malam

It is a cold morning,
I wake up when she morning call me. (7am)
Thx dar once agn :)
If not ur morning call i would wake up late...
I very zhu orh?

As usuall I preparing my stuff for tuition,
Ate 2 egg tart, and drinked chocolate milk.
Changed my shirt and pants and ready to go out.

I reach there around 9pm,
And she was having her activity in school.
Me and my tuition friends go to the Nasi Lemak stall and had one packet of it.
We go for tuition after it. (I miss dar so much)

After that I rush back to school and find her.
She still having marching, so I can only wait her lu.
Flipped my newspaper, no longer she can break already.
She come find me, pointed my back, and I looked at her.
She give me a bright smile ooo :)

Me and her went to Maideen mamak stall wit her St John gang.
All seems to be happy, and know that we are together.
She ordered Magee Goreng (her favorite) and Limau Ais~
She macam very hard to eat coz of me o,
Maybe she know I wan her swap me once :P
She could finish the food, and we go back to school le.

While walking back, there's a road which got many cars around.
And hor, I actually wanted to hold her hand and cross the road geh.
But she run so fast @@.
Too bad nar :P
After that I went back le. (Start rain le)

I went to pasar malam with my tuition friend,
she gave me a surprise that she went there without letting me know.
Keke, notty arh dar ><
Wan knock knock u le, hehe...
I saw her coming facing me wit her mom.
I feel surprice when I saw that scene @@
and I dunno want to say wad when see dao her.

In the 2nd round, I saw dar and her mom buying Uncle Bob.
So I go there with full of energy and called her mom "aunty".
Her mom remember me and say hi wit me also :P
We both have a nice conversation.
Till that she went back le.
She's pink pink de o.
Haih, so fast jiu miss u agn le, how ner?
Hope u can always beside me T.T
And can spend more time on each other face to face...

I asked my friend to teach me drive a motor (dont worry o, he got licence d)
I know how to drive le, but still not so stable.
After that den I go back le.
Next time I ask my friend to teach me agn.

Today is the 1st time I saw u in pasar malam o.
Quite surprise d...
But I hope that next time we could go out together and hang around in somewhere.
Dar, I love u once agn. :D
(Monday im going to find u :E)

Mind filled with my dar ><

Sharon's sweet day

2day so happy oo! haha
coz he make something to me & buy my favourite chocolate to me oo!
Since u beside me,
i really have a different life...
i become more happy le...
hehe...
sometimes i will thinked...
after u graduation,
will u forget me?
i really scare that day will come....
i also dunno y i always think negative side...
dear, dun want angry im always think negative ya! hehe
u must happy everyday, know ma?
dun want care some ppl how to treat u...
u try to communicate with them narh...
if really cant...
then dun want choi them ba!
most important is u happy...
now de me very very miss u oo!
huhu ^^

~Ur darling, hehe~

The 1st Term Exam Eve

Hmm, tml it should be her 1st term exam.
Form 4, alot of things and format changed liao de o.
Hope u can do ur best in ur exam ner.
Dun give urself too much pressure also @@
Jia You! Jia You!

Today u ate wit me during recess time o. (every Tuesday n Thursday)
Dunno u will feel bored for eating magee mee always le?
U beside me, I feel very happy le.
Although we are sitting side by side for jux a short time.
But enough le lu. (actually not enough de, so greedy o :P)
I miss the moment being with u.

Today, everything was fine.
But she's carrying the exam mood.
Which makes her feel stress and pressure.
Coz every ppl who wanna face exam sure will got those mood de ma.
I know ur feeling, u can do it de o!^^

I went to AniMaC Bunkasai after my tuition,
although I enjoy playing and taking photo at there.
But i wont forget her.
I got something for her :)
Hope she'll like it.

Surprisingly, when she was tuition,
a guy purposely sit beside her and tried to kao her @@.
She tell that to me and she was scared for a moment.
What she tell the boy is, "I got BF already..."
When I know that, I feel so gan dong and glad ler.
Even though I boy still duwan let go of his target of chasing her.
But I wont let him get my dar from mi,
Never~~~ ><
Because I really lub my dar mar...

Ok nar, let me remind myself...
Tml I gotta buy u ur favorite chocolate.
Bueno XD, as a gu li for u in the exam.
I still got something for u o...
Good luck in ur exam.

-Dearest/Beloved Kw-

2nd Presentation...

It is her 2nd presentation for the morning section.
Done alot of pray to hope she's working fine today =)
I was awaiting her turn for presentation.
She make dao her leg when she's preparing for the presentation.
I see dao also sum tong, feel like wanted to run in there and help her urut her leg.

When they are performing,
Except the sound got problem,
Either my eye got problem or wad.
They went wrong.

After that, I can see her face went bad.
She's not happy.
I know there's something wrong with her.
I go find her awhile when recess,
she's doing homework, she skip breakfast agn.
I gave her my chocolate milk...

Haih, she's not happy with herself.
She's always mentioned that she's useless.
But wad makes her think that she's so useless?
In my view and understanding, she's not useless at all.
I don't know wad can I say to overcome her negative thinking.
But i'll try my best to voice it.

Okay, let me say my words...
If u think u are useless, u're wrong...
U cannot say urself useless.
Actually u no need so purpose to make urself useful.
U can look at a tree,
Tree are so useful because it provide oxygen and do so many benefits for human.
But do the Tree try to make itself more useful???
To be truth, we are just like a tree...

WHY???
Coz we only have to do wad which is good and morally.
Do not easily give up on anything...
Do wad which can makes u happy...
Or at least u can solve problem which make u unhappy or distress...

We dont really need to make ourself more good.
We jux need to be ourself.
We are all doing the best we can with what we have.
Ppl will accept it...

U are doing the best u can with wad you have.
U are already living the most moral and correct life.
There's no more that you can do to make urself to be a better person.
Coz u're trying ur real best to be urself...
U are already a good person.
U also do not have to put too much effort every moment to be better than it is possible for you to
be.
If u found any mistake, solve it...
Wake up from that mistake and overcome it...
Make urself happy everyday instead of being down all the time (=

Cheer urself up.
Dont be low confident to urself.
Make ur life bright.
Dont look down on u...
We are in the same boat,
We got problems also,
Lets solve it together.
U will be fine :)
Always remember,
U can only do the best u can with what you have...

Dar,I hope u understand wad I wanna tell u...
U always ask me not to worry abt u,
Because u dont want me to get in to ur problem and feel fan always.
Right?
But actually I dont mind, as we are couple...
We are suppose to share our problem and loads together.
U tried ur best to make sure that im happy always,
And I also tried my best to make sure that u're happy always too.
This is called love and care between each other mar =)

I wanted to let u know that im ur good dear,
that other ppl cannot get u from me...
Dear sayang o...
Lurv u :)

Sharon's Beloved

Dear dear, u have give me a happy life...
when i sad, u always make me happy...
but when u sad, i dunno how to comfort u...
just can call u dun want unhappy,
then dunno what should i say le,
i so useless, sorry dear dear...
cant make dear dear happy...
but i really love u...
my heart only got u...
u cant leave me le oo!
haha~
I want be with u forever...
I love you ^^

The First Week...

Blink blink...
It's been a week.
This one whole week from Tuesday to Tuesday XD...
Ain't special for u all.
But it's special for us XD.
Of course la, 1st week together o.
Meant alot...

Okay, let me rewind back a thing that I had missed in the last post.
Back to the St John Annual dinner.
That day, I help them to perform T.T
She was there to perform too, and her mom help her for the cosmetic.
I dont dare to kacao her, scare her mom misunderstand :P
I wear like a sollow on that day.
Me and the band performed few song.
Almost the song is Jay's, but y the Capricorn album doesnt comes out?
If not we can perform the song that she like in that album (SHDXFN).
Hehe...

After the perform, they holds a game...
And im apart of their helper T.T.
I jux know that day I hold the paper liked thing and walk here walk there like baka.
She was at the ping pong station.
I chat wit her, that time she's also helping...
I bought water for her, coz she very thirsty.
She's hiding at the lumber yard there.
She took her own picture at there ><
Never ajak me... Hehe...

On that day, I saw her phone and read all her things inside the phone.
So sui gak hor me?
Although we are not that close,
But I had understand her quite alot after that day :)

Today, we ate together during the recess time.
And I enjoy eat with her ooo, although not that nature la :P
But we will biasa de, quite sweet eating wit her,
I can see her face red red d.
She likes magee...

Today I called her,
I tell her abt my stuff.
Quite stress with some groups of people.
But after telling her I feel better le.
Thx o dar =)

Juz back from tuition...
Ahh, tired o...
She mentioned that her tuition table full of my name :P
Muakaka, so happi to hear that o.
She went to sleep,
My phone went crazy le ooo.
Ok ba, I also go sleep le.
Luv eu... Muacks ><

Presentation

Eh, she got a presentation for St. John,
she's quite scare of it...
And I also quite worry abt her.
Dar sure gan chiong de lu @@
No matter what, i'll give u my full support de o.
Die also wan help u da qi.

Luckily, for the morning section they can't manage to hold it.
The function postponed to this Wednesday.
But yet, she need to present for the afternoon section.
Although she's scare, but not as scare as the time I meet her in the morning.

After school, since I still have time...
I go accompany her.
She seems exhausted,
she had used alot of energy.
I can see that she's tired :-( , and she din't eat...
(my heart pain alot... T.T)

When she's taking stuff, I wanted to help her take all the stuff.
But her senior was there, I scare I will trouble her, so I dont dare to help :-(
Feel myself so mou yong @@.
That Pn. Phua o, so long gas.
Her speech so long, I waited for very long.
Too bad, my god father coming to fetch me.
I cant watch her presentation.
If not kena marah by him >.<
Sorry ar dar. Sayang back ooo.

Everything seems bad after I'd got out the school.
There are some technical problem occured.
I dont really know what happened.
She cried...
I feel sad and worry abt her when she tells me.
The sky also rain for us le...

U dint cause them trouble, dun make urself wrong.
Because u all are working in a team, doesnt count who correct who wrong.
Promise that u did your best le,
Ovarall, I can see u put alot of effort for it.
U already did and tried ur best already...
Although it's not as perfect as u expected,
but day by day it will become more perfect.
U did a good job and not all of the people are so bersemangat like u :)
Believe urself, u can de...
U got me with u =)~

Dar, dun be sad ner...
Although im not with u when u're sad,
But my heart always with u de.
I wanted to be wit u when u're down or sad.
Anyway, Cheer UP!!!
MUACKX...
I Love You...

My 1st Post...

Hi, everyone...
This blog is about me and her.
And of course, the "her" I mean is Sharon Lai.
My one and only one Darling...
So, don't ya try to get her from me.
Because she is mine!!!

Let me share our story in this blog.
Hmm, i get to know her since last year (2008).
It happened when i entered the cadet police and took part the GO & NGO competition.
She was in the St John Ambulance and we both took part on it...
That day, I'm a stupid guy who being a fool on that day.
Wearing a big sized sunglasses.
(I believe she know that because I looks funny :P)

In that competition, both of our uniformed unit lost.
Every of the St John's member seems unhappy on that day.
What I can do is to make them smile and cheer them up.
Since that day, I meet her.

After few days, I get to know her name from her name tag (printed as : Sharon) :P
If im not mistaken, we were at the school parking lot there.
She gives me a good impression at 1st.
I get to know her from the "rumah sukan" group,
and also from my god cousin(biu mui), Cu San...

At first, I never pay alot of notice on her...
Me and her are just normal friend and being unfamiliar.
Our relation get closer at May Teng's birthday party.
At Alam Damai there, she was there wit one of her friend.
I remember I make her laugh until she cant manage to eat.
Funny huh???
(U still remember my jokes? The chicken wing :P)
To bad I went off abit earlier, because I need to go to my friend's house warming.

We started sms...
Day by day, our relation getting closer and stronger.
I become his god daddy.
We both do enjoy smsing each other,
just like couple alike.
And we both like each other too... (according to our feel na)
But too bad, we din't become couple at the end...

We yet sms...
Do cares each other well.
But we never express our love before.
Being secret,
I like her more n more,
She do like me more n more.
I feel complicated during that moment,
and I don't know whether she's really love me or not...

Badly, I got the wrong decision.
I din't think before I choose.
I choose another people instead of her.
Because I concluded that me and her's relation are until daddy n daughter only.
After several time, I feel that the girl not really the one I love.
That girl dint care me well, she dont understand me, she always misunderstand me,
and never find me...
My dar (Sharon), u're much more different...
Although we are not in a relation that time.
But u do care me well, u understand me well, u're also my good listener, u advice me always.
U're my ideal loves one...
From that day, I realize a good sentence...
Which is,
"Don't because u feel like wanna be in a relation, so you go find one...
Make sure u really love that people, then onli u go and be with him/her"

After that incident, I got break wit her and be with you.
Sorry for being so idiot last time...
My stupidness wrong decision...
Causes u get hurt deeply on 14/2/09.
Im so sorry... Very, very, sorry...
I had make a scar to ur heart, and my image in ur heart has broken...
I hope that you can fine me...
I wish u could understand my situation and forgive my past...

On the 22/2/09, I get to know that...
U really love me...And so me too...
On the 24/2/09, We managed to be together...

I finally realize that u're the one I should love with...
But not others, the love and care u give me is my ideal one...
I took time to consider back last time and now.
And I never feel regret being together with u...

I swear...to u, and to the god...
I feel glad to have u in my life...
I feel glad to be with u...
I feel blessed to be with u...

I wish I could be with you...
I wish we can face problem together...
I wish we can solve problem together...
I wish we can last forever...
Dont leave me...
( I know is sounds crazy, but i hope it can happen)
But no matter what...
I really love you...
Really...


**I dropped tears** (11.27pm 3/1/09)

I never copy from other place or other sentence...
It is original typed by me.
It is originally from my heart...
The words which comes from my heart...
I think I shound end here...
Tomorrow u got presentation for St. John,
try your best k? Jia You o...
Dont be scare, u're not alone.
Because im standing wit u...
I'll give u my full support...
Muacks, love u...