Black Sunday

This 2 days is darling de competition,
not only she gan chiong, I feel gan chiong also o.
I tot that I could give her a surprise by going there n support her.
But that place need us to wear uniform, I dint wear on that day.
So my plan has been canceled, I wanted to go for the next day but nobody inform me abt it.
But nvm ba, I think I shouldn't go because I might affect darling's mood.

After 2 days of the competition,
the final result had finally release.
Lao po lose in the competition...
I feel pity to hear that, but glad to know that she's still in the mood.
Every ppl lose also will got the feeling of lose, I understand.
Since u all already did the best le, dun feel down...
That's my advice for u.
Hope she dint cry for the losing.

Ok le na, it pass already,
Dun think too much k?
U might need time to get ur mood back.
Let dear know ur feeling k? Dun keep it in heart.
Everything will be ok, Lao gong sek fan na.
Muackx...

Have more rest arh, this few day u very tired le...

State Comp...

This few week, can consider month,
she work very hard on it, she even sacrifice alot of time wit her group of participant.
But I belive, this hard work is not blind work d.
There will be a moral and good value for the competition.
Darling, dun feel scare, dun pressure urself.
Take a deep breath n relax, belive urself that u n ur friends can do it de~
All the best k...
Im here to wish darling also a good luck n best of the best in the competition.
Same as her friend which participating.
I love my lao po, I know lao po can do it de.
Muackx.
A kiss for u, means my support for u...
Jia You!!!

I will always be wit u when u need me XD

Our 2nd Month...

Today, it a special day for us.
It's our 2nd month for being couple.
In these days, there are alot of happy n unhappy things happened.
Plus, there are also alot of pressure stuff with us...

This few days, many pressure and unhappy issues happened to darling.
Lao gong feel so heart pain for u :(
The competition coming le, dunno dar got time to spend wit me tomorrow onot.
But nvm, this time we no celebrate nvm...
Juz hope lao po will pass her competitions with glory or happily...
I hope after this competition, lao po will reduce alot of pressure wit her.
And can spend more time wit me...
Lao gong tamak hor???
(hope u can win in this competition, u can do it de!!!)

Now de lao po, day n night also keeping up of her studies n competition.
Lao po sure very very superbly tired...
Haiz, I juz can see dar suffer.
Feel like so useless nor.
But I had tried my real best to cheer darling up...
This month, we come across alot of hard time together.
But no worries, I will be the one who let u share ur bitter of ^^
Juz like u sleep beside me...
I will give u all I have~

Now de me,
Need u alot in my life...
Only u can calm me down.
Even how tired I am,
how happy I am,
how tired I am,
I will onli think about u...
I swear...
My heart onli beats for u,
U are fully in my heart now.
Darling, are u in the same thinking of me?

I hope I can bring alot of happiness n joy to lao po...
I guess, tomorrow will be a sweet day for us.
But dar went for training, whole day...

This time, I will not giving anything...
Not handcraft, not something which use money buy...
I will give something besides from that,
where money cannot buy it from.
And im gonna ask lao po's permission to do it once.
I wonder lao po ready for it onot?
I do it because I got reason for it...
Can I? Or do we have time on it?
(00:37 hr)

My mood suddenly becomes a doom when midnight.
I cried non stop yesterday, I had argue wit my dad...
This time, I explain all my problems to him.
I hope he really understand my feeling of being a son ba.
Im not a ppl which got no feeling, im not paralyze like my mom.
I really cant hold it anymore, but I feel much more better after the talk wit my dad...
Thx darling for being wit me at that time,
I think my tears wont be able to stop without u...
Lao po must be superbly tired ba, sayang back k? Muackx~
Good Night~
We must be strong ^^
(02:00 hr)

This morning, both of us had not enough sleep.
We reach to the school quite early,
I had wish darling a happy 2nd month anniversary today.
She was rushing for her training, the competition is around the corner le.
We are unable to carry on celebration because of that.
But nvm, I understand ur situation...
There is other day to celebrate for it,
no worries k??? Go for training ler, must win orh ^^
Unfortunately, I unable to send her my kiss ><
But, in my heart I always supporting darling de arh,
I swear~~
Although today we meet, for juz awhile...
I yet miss u very much ^^

This 2nd anniversary, hope u can do well in ur competition.
Plus, hope our relation n love remains the same n never fall.
May our love be long, or even forever.
We can celebrate it on other day, but the competition cant repeat other time.
Hehe ^^, I think I have to stop right here...
(18:10 hr)

Selfish

(20/4/2009, Monday)
Sorry for being so long never post the blog.
This few day, many things has happened.
U know wad happened on last night right?
Like I said to darling before, everytime I look into ur eye I will know ur mood.
Finally, u get to know how to determine my mood through my eye...
Although im cheering myself up, but my eye cant lie to u that im still not happy.
Juz like dar when not happy...

Today, I told u all the stuff abt last night...
I cried on that night...
I bet u sure feel heart pain, im sorry to let darling worry abt me.
Thx for dar willing be my listener, I feel alot better le.
Today is exam interversi and also exam week.
Too bad, I dun have time and the mood to study.
I done my sejarah paper bad, but moral after recess still ok la...

Darling come find me in the lab today,
I can feel that she is worrying me alot, she keep on alerting me.
I cant keep fall down wit my mood, I still have to be strong.
I took my moral, and revise as much as I can...
Thx darling for accompany me ^^

After school, I dint stay back, but I hope that she can accompany me more...
Darling's competition coming very soon le.
It is her last week of preparetion, win or lose judge in this Saturday le.
It's around the corner, I hope dar can do her best...
And best wishes to darling and her teammate who sacrifice alot of time for the competition.
Gambateh~~~



Well, now it's time to think abt things should do after the competition.
Dar has been left out alot in studies, she's very tired for staying back for training everyday.
Her skin also turn dark n black round 'eye become more deeper' le...
Not just lao gong worry abt u, ur parents worry abt u too~
According to my plan, I wanted dar to focus on study le.
I wanted to revise wit darling, not juz can help her, it helps me too...
Other unnecessary thing should let go already.
Come on, this is SPM, not UPSR or PMR anymore, this is FUTURE...
Form 4 is not a honey-moon year.

It's another trouble after the competition...

Hmm, wad is lao po thinking to do after the competition???
Before she sleep, she mentioned that SW called her through phone n chat alot of stuff.
She dropped her tears, maybe some words gan dong dao her ba.

Darling, now is the time u choose wad to be le...
Study, or Cocuricullum?
Yea, u no ren xin see ur fren suffer like that...
They xin ku, u also xin ku...
But help ppl also got limit de mah.
U already xin ku, y u still need to deep inside it?

When something make ur hand pain,
Will u let it pain until it produce a deep injuries?
U already feel pain le, u still put ur hand on the thing which can make ur hand pain and let it be?
U gotta let go of ur hand so u wont feel pain on it or even deeper injuries.
If u let go, maybe the injuries can be recover.
If u still not letting to, sorry to say ur injurie might getting more deep and at the end it cant be recover...


Yea, they have not enough ppl to help with the St John.
Do u think that ur study has left out?
Okay, U can help them, but wad's the reward of helping them???
Do they appriciate u? Do u have the power n energy to handle the position?
I know darling wanted to help them alot, but once u help, u bring down many things from u.
Sometimes, we must ukur baju di badan sendiri.
We dont have so big de head, we cant wear so big de hat...
Not to say u selfish or not, U really need to SAVE urself 1st before helping others.
Now u are in so cham de situation, u still need to help ppl o?

Let me ask u one question, because of friendship, u willing to sacrifice ur studies because of them.
Do it worth? How worth was it??? Do they reward u? Wad kind of reward u get???
We must be smart, since we dont have so much power to do so many thing.
Den we onli can be back ourself ba, dont give ppl '找笨'...
U can help, but u have ur coverage and limit of helping,
u can help in ur range which is wont affect ur studies de...
But not too over helping... U onli will suffer more n rugi onli.
Ur future is important.
Hope darling know wad u're doing right now...

I advice u to do like that because I had tried this before.
Last year I used to be safety officers of EyeConn, ExonMobil in our school.
The ppl which I dont like used to be my good buddy last time.
I voted n give idea to bring him up to be Deputy CEO.
I gave alot of idea for doing business.
It's a good idea, I dont know y they never appriciate and rejected my idea.
They onli think that wad they plan is perfect, my idea is a rubbish.
But at the end, they use back my idea and never thanked me before.

I am juz an Idiot in the club, because of them, I mostly wan to quit the club.
I know, I am a low position member, but they never respect me.
I'd drag out alot of time n go for meeting for discussion, they never respect my idea.
Even the logo I did it myself...Did I count from them? Never...
They are like using me as a idiot...
I left out of studies alot because of Athelic, Kadet Polis n mostly from the Eyeconn.
But wad I did got any return? Seriously no...
Did I get any rewards? Do they thanked me???
All no... Means that year I did alot of thing is juz for nothing...
I feel very regret that I'd wasted so much time in that year.
If last year i intend to focus on my study, I wont suffer in this year...
Now, I let go most of my cocurrikulum activity and focus more into my studies and lao po le.

Remember, this is not selfish...
This is juz to protect urself.
Im taking the responsibility as ur lao gong and give u positive advice.
All my words is for ur own good de.
Doesnt bring any harm on u...

我不想看到老婆跟我一样有这样的下场...
我所讲的东西全都是为你好,
我不想看到老婆再辛苦下去.
因为我很担心你,
我爱你...

April 17th

In the midnight, we both had a bad time.
A real bad time~
Darling's mood was 360 degree changed.
She cant hold on and express her feeling on me towards her life.
I'd adviced her n bring back darling up in mood.
That night, I will not forget that I had cried for her.
It happened naturally, I cant control it.
I cant see dar suffer like this...
(Dar, dun say sorry to me... U did not wrong.)
Thx dar for sharing all ur things to me.
Since we are couple, I always cares abt u.
I tried my best to make u happy n feel bless in ur life.
Im trying to fix all of the sadness that u had now or in future.
We both must love n care each other well,
I wan to pass every moment wit dar happily everyday.

Darling not in the mood in the morning,
but during recess time, she starting to gain back the happy mood le ^^
After school, I pass by the st john room n visit her for awhile.
She was not happy agn because her friend not going to see doctor.
Phew~~

When I hug dar after her training today,
I feel like all my stress are gone.
All the sadness could bring to happiness.
The feeling was totally different until I cant describe it.
It juz like we are in our world already ^^
Dar, do u feel the same thing wit me?
Ya, we both are very tired recently,
But must rest more ok?

I gave her my kiss, it can consider our 1st kiss,
And it can be consider as another step for us ba?
It's a sudden from me...
Sorry I'd stolen it from u, it's our 1st time.
I know u havent ready yet, so I had to say sorry for that ><
Hope that will become a memories and promises between us.
A perjanjian that we both will never leave each other and love each other with our true heart.
If it's possible, I wan our relation to be forever...
(I need to highlight something... Darling, today is the 1st time u kiss me. I would never forget today and I would like to THX darling, I was so happy...)

Lao po,
Now, I cant except u from my life,
U had become a routine for me.
My mind packed of u.
I love u very much.
I meant it ^^

Tiredness

Lao po, this few day...
U did alot of things, u are exhausted~
Chasing ur homework, staying back training, doing revision, reading St John book for Everyday...
U seldom rest also, sure very very very tired.
Im very comfirm that u're reaching the crazy zone le.

During this few day,
I can see from ur eye that u're very tired.
I wanted to offer u my shoulder for u to sleep,
hugging beside u and help u massage...
This should be the best way dar can sleep well n feel warm ba? :P
When the time im not with dar, I also wan darling sleep earlier.
When I look into ur eye everyday, it tells me that u are tired n sleepy...

Argh, I know darling very san fu,
U feel that u're so failure in ur life because u cant do well.
U mentioned that u cant follow ur studies and even no improvement in St John.
Hmm, lao gong wanna advice u le.

Dar, u keep work so hard everyday. There will be return for ur hard working.
It's not that u cant follow, maybe it is because the syllabus are too many and teacher need to rush for it so that they can finish it.
So it causes dar hard to catch up.
But dont worry, I promised dar that I will help u with it right after the competition.
U still got me o, no worries, I wont see my own beloved cham like this d ^^
Lao gong will try my best to help u de!!!
Yea, dar left out alot in studies, but in the other side dar need to keep up on St John.
But trust lao gong, u really improving de...
Trust urself also~
Muackxz ^^

A day contains 24 hours, time in running, it wont pause or stop.
We can do de thing in one day is limited.
So in the 24 hours, we gotta know how to use it well.
Juz like we go training for something, we cant juz train 24 hours non stop de mar.
Time must be divided for sleeping, eating n relaxing d.
Ok na, one day train for 2 hours. In one month, the training kumpul together, how much le?
Maybe now u don't feel the changes, but day by day,
the knowledge u kumpul will become something strong ^^

Maybe now u're in a very tired d condition,
causes u cant really concentrate n absorb things as usuall.
And ur pressure makes u more gan chiong.
U still boasting urself, robot also will out of battery o ><
Lao po, relax arh...
Dont forget lao gong arh, im always wit u.
Must..... Must must must have more rest lerrr...

Today, when I was in the St John room wit u,
although u dint show that u are not in the mood.
But before that, in the computer lab that time I know u moody le.
Nvm na, at last u also told me abt ur problem le.
Dear dear hope that I can helps u n solve ur problem.
I will try to keep on advice darling when darling got problem.
Macam long gas jor hor? Blek...

I teach u how I used to release the pressure na.
When I feel tat my mind are very heavy or tired,
I will try to listen to song (in earphone) before I sleep.
Lying on the bed, and rewind back wad happened.
Think until u tired le (Might drop tear).
Take out ur earphone, and sleep...
During the next day, u will feel not so tired n not so heavy le.
I always did that last time, I dunno it will helps u onot le?

Lao po, CHEER UP!!!!!

Kw's Friendship...

Is friendship really that worth to be?
Knowing friend more is good.
But those who really my "Best Friend".
Do they really my Best one?
Until now, I still dont believe with friend...

Mainly starts wit 友愿 ba.
U dun have that to an individual or a group,
means u cant really put ur true heart wit them.
Sometimes friend might misunderstand on each other.
Or either one of them might 出卖 each other.
Causes fight, or even war...
Since I already kena this experience for several times,
I know it well.

One thing I dunno y, I'm so fed up wit a group of ppl.
They never stop the war... I wonder y?
It's been awhile, I never kacao them, but now they still kacao me.
I cant assume them invisible, but they cant???
Hmm, was that childish? I'd had enough of their 面色 le.
The class really not belongs to me.
Rude to say, IT'S SUXXXXXXX~~~

I make this simple,
I'd talk abt this to dar, I believe dar know more abt it in the conversation.




Lets back to the topic,
Me n Lao po de life,
Passing step by step together,
Hand to hand, Easily, Softly, Peacefully........
We are getting more understand each other le.
We are getting more deep in love le.
My life cant except u...
Day by day, the love we gather will become gold in one day.

Lao po, yesterday u read le the horoscope,
It seems to be our 星座 having hard time together.
But I dun think it is a big deal for us.
As long as we really love each other,
As long as we really give out our true heart,
We can overcome the problem le.

Lao po, dun worry,
Even there are halangan,
I wont leave u...
My heart is always wit u.
I love u...

(Im lacking of time, it's late now, so i simply post the blog)

Carnival Day

Memories... 11/4/2009

Today, there's a carnival in school.
This is the 1st year that my school have such big carnival.
Which everybody need to
We both have a very sweet moment there.
Hmm, it's a day I should share our memories~

It starts in the morning,
Where we meet in pondok,
We share the same headphone n she was playing my phone.
Roller Coaster o??? Blekkkk~
Hmm, she smells so wangi until I wont forget that smells.
No longer, we got into the lab. Everybody seems very busy.
Me n Darling went in the lab together and waiting for the time to start.
It started on 8, every ppl rushing into our place, we are busy at the moment.
After the crowd, we are free for awhile.
We had a walk around the school, this time is different, we walk together in front of many ppl.
We getting more close o? :P
Aiks, we did plan to go for the ghost house together d, but too bad we dont have chance to visit it.
She went to St John for training after tat.
When she was in the St. John room, I ask the PA to play a song to her. (which is SHDXFN)
Dar dunno got hear dao mou le?
When she's going to HQ, she also ask the PA to play the same some to me o.
When I receive msg from her, I go out listen the song. (Too bad it started jor)
Dar sure very dissapoint geh na.
We cant go ghost house @@
She gave me her coupon and she asked me to use it all.
I miss her alot when she went off...
I feel very pity nor, T.T

On that moment, I was quite busy because we are lacking of ppl.
All those members who got duty went to play around the carnival.
And me n few ppl duty until crazy, I was quite angry and scold all of them.
Things cold down after awhile, everything run normally.
Im waiting darling back...


My Darling's Name...



Full of Darling @@

The ppl getting less n less.
The place is going to close soon,
surprisingly she's back!!!
When I get to see her, all my tiredness n stress are gone.
I feel happy to see her...
When the lab 1 is closed, we went to the ghost house (thx to the scout member)
Luckily I still got save some extra coupons, so we 2 can go in ^^
Finally, the moment we hope for so long 实现 le..
We go into it, inside is quite scary d, darling hold my hand tight...
Although I scare ghost also d, but I still need to be brave.
Coz I need to give darling safety de feeling mar, Huhu ><
I hold her tightly, she was so scare o.
Actually those "ghost" macam alien onli, because the music effect n ppl wit mask looks scary onli mar.
Got one helpers o, keep on scare my darling o, I keep on slap him :P
Dunno y ner? My natural fan ying o? Muakakakaka

We are filled wit sweat n hot, we went back to the lab 2.
The fear finally over. Phew~~~
We sit on the 2nd row, spending our sweet time. (Sorry that I make the ppl around there become spotlight)
But couple should spend time to interact each other more geh :P
Am I right??? XD
This is the 1st time I took pic wit her (sry, i take dao not so nice)
Next time we take better one k? :D
I kena bully by the gang tim. Cham...
They took the picture of me n her.
Both of us enjoy the day, sure happy sei lu.
No longer, it's the time we go back le.
Her mommy arrived when we got down.
I bu she der she go back ner. ><
(Sei lo, I so tamak jor)

Our day ended like that, she went back n I also went back le.
This day, i dunno how to describe the feeling.
But it is a new steps ahead.
There's no conclusion. But it's all in my heart.
Same as darling...
Remember this day o. Our memories, our life~
Lao po, muackx~
(Hope that I can give u feel warm and safety.)

One Step Forward

Everything goes fine today!
When morning, I got meet up wit her in the school.
The moment she's wit me, I still got the imagination, she's so sweet...

No longer, she's in class when tuition.
I went to find her, she seems angry abt me playing around wit her.
Truely, the way she beat me with her looks really very lovely.
When finish school, we went to the club computer meeting together.
She was beside me, i took her pic, (but too bad she delete one of it)
The way we play around really funny orh...
Darling really so cute ner, we are like very natural together o?
Hehe, feel like we are getting more close n natural for being couple le.

After the meeting, we went out school and see for doctor.
Lao po, sorry that me n ur fellow friends lie to u...
We all are worry abt u alot, we scare smth bad might happened to ur back.
So we plan somethings to makes u go see doctor.
The plan was failed, it ended up with dar dar cry in front me n ur friends.
I quickly rush back n an wei her...
My heart is so pain, I should not do that.
But in this incident, i think dar realize that she's not really apart from friend.
Actually, i wanted to let dar know that everyone are caring n worry abt her.
Her best friend always alert her while doing task together.
Darling, belive me, ur friend knows u well and they will separate ur privacy time wit me n friendship time. I believe they will think like that...
Of cource, dar dar cannot throw me alone.
After this lessons, i think dar can conclude the difference of me n friends clearly.
This is another steps we take on ^^

(Dear not asking u to leave me, I dont mean that, n I wanted dar to be wit me more geh. Juz to let u know that ur friend never have distance wit u ^^)
(Aiya, that clinic really zzz... That nurse laugh at me)

Yesterday I think very long, I know this will be happened.
I know u wont go for the rawatan.
But I still need to go on, I dunno dar dar will really pain mou geh o. (hard to say)
And even Shue Wen ask me to carry on this plan.
Think le n think, finally I found out this value, so I go on the plan.
Hahas, I juz wan to see my lao po happy always.
I will always help dar n support dar. I wan dar to have good life.
I wan to brights up lao po de life, and become ur most valuable de person in ur life.
I sha o? Hehe.
Should go sleep le, good night orh!~

Love my lao po...
Muackx!~

Friendship

Love n Friend...
We are standing on the center of it...
Both are important...

Friends are someone with whom you can share all your secrets with.
They help u out, talk to you when you need to talk, share your problems,
talk abt gf b bf, and hang around.
They might help u out with your social issues and your personal issue.
Mostly a ppl will spend more time with friend than their beloved...

Love is something not very much different from friendship.
Love is actually a natural feeling,
which comes when you start to like or love someone from the depth of your heart.
This feeling is very different from other feelings.
When u see me, u will feel gan chiong, and when dear come to talk to u abt something,
u will realize tat u cant say words straightly n heartbeat increase...
When we are close together, suddenly a xing fu n special de feel comes out, and this is love.

Love and friendship are two very important relations is one’s life.

Lao po, recently u are very stress with many things.
And now, added with another pressure.
Which is from dear n friends...
Both of them are very important to u, i know it...
But u are very confused wit that,
When u be wit me, all ur fren will leave u...
When u be wit ur fren, u will worry abt me...
Dar, if u scare ur fren will treat u mo sheng, juz go for them ba.
Dun worry abt me, im ok de... I duwan dar to be unhappy because of that.
I understand ur situation, I rather see dar happy than see dar pressure wit that.
I wan u to be happy...
U really very nan shou of that, even sometimes u wan cry also never let anybody know.
But i being dear dear really very heart pain of it, my heart really very pain...

When there is a couple, both of them are connected heart to heart.
It is a new lifestyle for them...
A good example from Daniel n Chui Li...
Which means friend will understand abt it n try to make the couple together.
There will be some distance between friendship,
because there is already a ppl who become half of ur heart already.
U get wad I mean?

Sometimes, i really feel very shi bai for being a human.
Am i really selfish??? Am i very 8???
Is my way of caring my lao po is too tight???
Seriously i wanna know.
I cant do well in studies, I dun have a nice family...
I am much more tired, I tired until used to it already.
人总会开心和伤心...
And now i onli have u, i duwan to lost u.
I dun need friend, but i need u the most.
Without dar, my heart becomes empty.
I dun mind that u know how to advice onot, coz every ppl got their good n bad.
I juz wan ur caring n love, and truely truely love me.

I cant force u to make a choice more into me or friend.
It is up to u, coz this is dar dar de personal option mar.
Follow ur heart and go. Think wad is important with n when it is important to.
Dun pressure urself.

Lao po, got anything must tell me...can ma?
Must must must must tell...
Dun keep it in heart, promise me k? I really wanna care abt u...
I wanna be the 1st one to care u...
Although u think is small matter, but also must tell...
I worry small will become big o.
Sorry that i bring this pressure to dar...
Sha gua, muacks...

Storm...

It's been a long while...

Today, is the day I hoping to see her.
In the morining, I got into da school and waiting for her arriving,
unfortunately I cant find her and I got to get into the lab on that time.
Maybe she's in st john room.
But nvm nar, I can find her during recess...

When recess, I go into her class n sit together.
I teach her add maths, I macam very geng like that (but im not)
I tried to teach her wad I know nar, but very pai seh o.
I dunno correct onot de :P
I saw dar dar de table, there wrote "Kw, Lucky Star"
She sure miss me till sot le ^^
(When I see that i feel happi o...)

After recess, all the form5 students including me went into the hall n take form picture.
It is damn hot, I stand at the table there for one hour le.
And finally, they took us 10 pics...

When finish school, I was trying to find her.
But she went to training, too bad nar...
I wanted to be wit her ooo ><

Weather becoming bad, it rain heavily (like shower)
She n her friend was staying at the carpark there and waiting the rain stop.
I saw them, i was quite worry...
I decided to run to there and ask them need umbrella onot.
They all see me run go there n all run back st john room le (I macam bai chi)
Dar dar also run back le, left 2 ppl at the carpark there,
SW ask me to bring umbrella go zhe them back.
I open the umbrella, once i go there, i pass the umbrella to then n i run back le.
But dar dar see le sure very heart pain n angry me.
Coz I lin yu...
Sorry arh...Very very sorry...
I know i very bai chi plus stupid...
I baka baka~~~Should not let u worry... ><


There's something I would like to share wit dar today,

Today is monday, my mom have annual holiday for 3 days.
Means until wednesday...
My mom, I predict she sure go genting wit friends today.
And she do went there, I get to know when I got back from school.
My dad also know abt that, my dad got chat wit me abt my mom when I was back.
I called my mom, she say she at IOI Mall wit her friends.
My dad de mood not good, he know she will go judi.
I see dao that, my mood starting getting down, but still try not to think it.
Hours by hours....my mom haven back...
Until now, it's almost 12midnight. Im worry abt my mom.
I sms her, she say she at genting...
And I dunno wad will happened after that.
Wad to do, i juz need to be prepare n face forward.
Haiz, cham me... It's complicated...

Lao po, i need u to be wit me....
All i need now is u...
I love you...

Crazy me ><

Da weather, super super superrrrr HOT!
Dar adviced me not to play basketball under the hot sun.
And she's quite worry abt my tooth as it bengkak already.
At the same time, Im worry abt she going to kena sun burn agn.
I also worry that dar dar will get sick...
Coz she need to go training and less drink water o.
(stupid weather...)

Our school have picture season today.
I got nothing to do, i go for many club n took alot of pic from there :P
Hence, We both are taking pic for the club computer.
She's sitting in front n im standing behind.
When we took the 3rd pic, which is the free style...
I went to back of her n took pic together :P
Silly huh???
(Quite baka de, we cant stand a change to take pic together, and now, we have chance :P)
(U cant delete it also le...BLEK!!!)

Later on, we have meeting in the computer lab.
I go remind her go up.
Aiks, i wonder y she keep mention "Han" -,-
I kissed her, and her reaction was so cute.
Although she never did anything, but its ok,
I can feel it from her reaction :)
She was so CUTEEEEEE :P XD :D!~

Today, it can consider an unforgetful day.
We took pic together (although many ppl, but i'll scan big the pic n cut that pic left me n u)
We do spend a short time in computer lab ^^
After that I went back le.
Aihs, i started to miss her le.
And now, i miss her alot!!!




Lao po.... Wo Hao Xiang Ni A~~~~~~

Victory =)

It is the day of dar's competition,
after alot of support and pray,
Her team finally got number 2 in the comp.
It can be consider as a very surprise result and a very shock moment.
Dar should be very happy of it ^^ CONGRATULATION!!!
(I bought bueno, chocolate milk n draw a 打气 paper for her)
Finally, her effort of it had brought successful result ^^
She dint buta2 put her effort on it...

I miss her alot...

Life always comes in n out,
Jux like happieness n sadness, sweetness n bitterness.
The 1st month of us are quite happy n sweet,
But we cant assume when is the sadness n bitterness,
we also cant assume when will rain n when will sunny,
as it always comes in and go away...

We should be always ready n standby for it.
Face anything together,
Life like study, family, society, me n u...
Dar, are u ready and prepared to face it together???

This few day she get scolded by her dad,
Her dad scold her that she always sms n sleep lately.
Im quite worry abt her and feel sorry for it.
We are going to reduce out daily sms,
it's ok that we can still communicate together.
Dear is ok with it.
Dar should sleep early o, and I will also sleep earlier :)
No worries!~
Sorry ar dar...

I can't sleep now, so I decided to post my blog here.
There are many couple around,
Big de, small de, medium de also have.
The way they express their feeling n love to each other, are different.
Im quite a weird person or wadever person.
Because my way of thinking are "strange"?
I'll jux post in blog which speaks out from my heart.

Maybe I think dao abit far,
I was thinking that if one day ur parent know abt us wad will they do.
Yea, it's a complicated question n hard to answer abt that.
Many parent will onli think that being couple will onli waste our time.
They will also think that it might have some friction, no heart in study,
too young to pak toh n also "搞出人命".
And ETC...
So they always fan dui their son/daughter for being couple.
It also good de, they also care abt their son/daughter de mar...

But I dont think thats the main reason for having girl friend in my life.
I will think that it is my another half, I will sayang it, I will appriciate it~
Being couple will enhance my life, it will give me a aura/power to do something.
The semangat will improve our study n many more things...
We can understand and share something from each other,
which our parent cant really understand...
We can even share our problems which brings us down,
we will advice each other also, life will be always happy.
Do things also more fresh n aggresive...

If I mention this to others, ppl will say, "This is bullshyt!".
It means ppl onli believe that being couple is because of :
-Good feel
-Jux wan some ppl to accompany
-Playing with relation (play boy/girl)
-Jux for fun
-Wanna feel/try something luar biasa (好色)
-"Semangat ingin cuba tinggi"
-Jux for fame/face (show off)
And lots more abt negative aspects...
But where's the positive side???

I dunno y hor, there are many news abt this issue,
which let all parent worry abt that...
Nowadays, wad's in teenagers mind? Because of those????
Omg ><

Jux to inform, im not those kind of person ^^
Im not those "play boy" or those ppl who wanna try smth silly (18sx).
For being with darling, I never think of those..
I juz wanted to have a dar in my life, so I choosen u, and u choosen me.
Our reason of chosing each other not onli because of good feel or wad.
It also because of we choose each other together to have a journey to success~
To be success is not a destination, it is a journey that we need to take on.
Try to think na, if do those thing, when matured that time onli da suan na.
We are too young to reach that level...
Am I right? XD

I mention abt this is to 反对 ppl who think that my opinion is wrong...

Now our level is love each other n maintain it,
remember, we are not in Puppy Love...
we did wad we can to care/love each other n understand each other well.
we already steps in one month, it is level of a sweet month.
There are more ways to go, now our target is not 2nd or 3rd month...
It is a YEAR...
In this one year, if we can cross it together, means we reach another safety level.
I hope we can go smooth stage by stage, step by step, month by month, year by year.
This is called true love...
So that we can together forever ^^

Sorry I go to sleep so late...